1. two kills. i seem to be turning into a vampire: only killing allows me to fully live--so watch your ass.

2. there seems to be a serious case of blog-related seasonal affective disorder around here. look at the sidebar on the left, and you will see the blogs that i check most religiously (minus a couple, i suppose). now, of those blogs, three (wayne, kt, sarah) have officially stopped blogging. dan has not posted in weeks. even rabi seems to be slowing down a bit. and clearly, this should not *really* be a problem for me. it's not, in fact, a really big problem. but i keep wondering whether i should be worried about myself--what does it mean that those little windows into the lives of people i already know anyway are so important to me? after all, it's not as if i don't get to find out what happens in those lives (except for wayne's, but whatever, i'll stick with the generalization) when they don't post. on the other hand, i often think that what people write in their blogs is an interesting glimpse into which of their publicly available thoughts they actually find most important, or what's really on their minds.

on yet another hand (this is my third, right?), this change is entirely appropriate to this season. it goes hand-in-hand with the romantic turmoil, the deep conversations and the suddenly early sunsets. it makes sense, in a way, that when other things about your life are changing, the ways and fora in which it's appropriate to talk about your life should change, too. so for me it's fewer really intense conversations, more reflection and private writing, blog as nice constant low key distraction. aaaaahhhh...